For my banana nut muffin E, over at www.starvingartistink.com
1. where is your cell phone?
It’s actually next to me. But until this morning it was in a bowl of rice trying to draw all the moisture out of it from it’s little “bath” in the dish water.
2. your hair?
Seven dreadlocks that somehow continue to form over and over again throughout the years, even when I chop them off. Left over henna red. Clumpy ringlets. Washed last night. Half braided and tied in a knot with itself in back.
3. your mother?
Warrior womb. Giver of life. Martyr. Neurotic. MILF at 79. Smart. Excellent baker. OCD Cleaner. Package sender. Full of Faith.
4. your father?
Goodfella. Strong, Genius. Passionate. Rebel. Writer. Singer. Generous. Hot tempered. A god with a frying pan and Italian sausage and hot peppers and onions. Gorgeous. Muscular. Silly. Affectionate. Baby lover. Stubborn.
5. your favorite food?
Raw. Sushi. Anything that comes with a dip. Thai.
6. your dream last night?
I didn’t dream because I didn’t sleep. The winds, oh the winds. They shook the house, I tried to fight the fear, but it was so intense. I just stayed up all night until the died down around 5am. 60 miles an hour they traveled.
7. your favorite drink?
Americano. Double. With fresh cream. OR fresh made Chai with honey and coconut milk. OR Whiskey on the rocks with a splash of bubbly water and 2 limes. OR Absinthe. And water. I love water.
8. your dream | goal?
To live in love and harmony.
9. the room you are in?
My beautiful, beloved bedroom. Antique writing desk. View of the bay and the islands. Vintage pink and brown delicate flowered wallpaper. Crystal chandelier. Baby sleeping on my boob. Sula in bed reading a book in our bed the one her DaDa made for us . Re-mix of Peter Tosh’s Legalize playing in the background from the downstairs stereo. The light is like the breath of angels right now.
Word Alchemy. Beach Comber. Applying eye make-up. Dancing in a way that should be illegal. Reading long novels in the bath.
11. what is your fear?
12. where were you last night?
At home with my beautiful girls reading a novel while they made castles with blocks after we ate black beans and rice inside sprouted corn tortilla with lime and avacado. Late night Dada returns to help with bedtime which did not happen until 9:45 because my girls are on speed or something. The winds kept us all alert last night.
13. something you are not?
gluten free, vegan, pumpkin dark chocolate chunk. Wait. Fuck muffins. GIMME CUPCAKES!
25. wish list items:
more boots. A fancy hat. A red wool coat. A buyer for my writing project. That my children always feel the love they deserve.
26. where did you grow up?
New York State.
17. last thing you did?
Made brown sushi rice and folded laundry and put on eye make-up (this is a new thing).
18. what are you wearing?
Black legging and a brown tank top and a baby asleep across my lap. Bare feet.
19. your TV:
Nope. None here.
20. your pets?
live in oklahoma. hoping to get one for our home soon..
21. your friends:
22. your life:
Is a dream.
23. your mood?
24. missing someone?
Bowing head in shame. A big silver Toyota Sienna Minivan. Post partum purchase that should have never been. Now we owe more on it than it’s worth. Ugh.
26. something you’re not wearing:
a bra and undies.
27. your favorite store?
Any little boutique that is not a chain that has smoochy little clothes and sweet things…such as this one www.thepaperdoll.net
28. your favorite color?
Aqua. Flaming Red. Grass Green. Sunset Orange. Deep Purple. Gold.
29. the time you last laughed?
30. the time you last cried?
Two days ago. We were driving out to the house that is in the process of a short sale to pick up the last of our stuff. The beautiful drive down that lush valley, my heart ache for the loss, for the space, for the mountains that linger, the rivers that rush, the eagles that soar, the quiet. The peace. Mine. My girls. But it was bittersweet. I am so much happier where I am now. But the dream is gone and that brought a rush of tears down my face.
31. your best friend:
32. one place you go over and over?
The ugly place in my head where insecurity of my creative worth lives. AND the lovely juicy spot in my heart that makes me pinch myself: do i really have these three divine daughters? Wow.
33. guilty pleasure?
Paying a babysitter to watch my kids to go do writing that I am not yet getting paid for.
34. favorite place to eat?
Home. With Brooke cooking.
35. where do you want to be six years?
With my family. Creating. Exploring. Learning. Expressing our True Selves.